When it comes to this your knees start trembling because you are not sure that you can do it,

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cate and i went through some of the free options around the web for valentine's to download and print.

cate: did you love disney games on the computer when you were five?

me: um, we didn't have computers in our homes then.

i am given glimpses of the why and the good and the reasons and the plan. the bigger picture and the necessity for some to not fit the mold.

my room is clean and i'm knitting.

we lived on a corner in a typical o.c. tract neighborhood.

feeling so inspired

i am determined! bad

isn't life surprising? i was laying awake thinking last night about how different my life has gone then what i thought (in a good way).

grant and i talked last fall about wanting to take control and own a home and make some of our dreams a reality. so we planned to move back to california for some opportunities there.

let me preface this by saying that there is no one size fits all eating plan for someone with hormonal issues. for some women, cysts, irregular cycles, lack of ovulation, and too much testosterone and its effects are directly related to bad insulin regulation in their body. for these women, they may be able to restore better regularity with avoiding blood sugar spikes by not eating carbohydrates, therefore eliminating the insulin problem. that is why so many women can conceive with metformin or glucophage because these medicines work at that level.

i do have one faithful companion who is braving the germs: penny the pug russell.

she is my best babysitter for cate. she takes turns with me putting cate to bed and being her pillow.

breakfast: i always have two eggs and salsa. always. i don't really get sick of it, and it would really stink if i did because there's not a lot out there for breakfast. actually, when you are at your ideal weight and ovulating regularly you can have any kind of whole grain hot cereal without a problem. you know, steel cut oats, etc. i am not quite there yet. berries and grapes are pretty low on the glycemic index and i have those, too. oh and i love cottage cheese with fruit.

a little note for my valentine

i have never been an animal person. i swore i'd never have a dog. who wants to pick up poop? not me. but somehow in my baby hungry weakness i was convinced to relent by the other two mccalebs who said they desperately needed a puppy. fine. whatever, just take care of her and pick up the poop.

how have you been surprised? what can i say?

Off to the kindergarten valentine party

i think they are so cute. i love her litte handwriting. and she is beyond excited to pass them out. some other projects she and i looked at but didn't get around to (of course) from martha (of course):

guess what i finally put in the shop?

project 31 is rolling along. i have donations for every single item i need for the 31 newborn kits and lots of fabric donations and i will sew until there are 31 baby quilts too! thank you SO much, i was overwhelmed by the awesome response. packages are starting to arrive! i will be sure to post some pictures when i get it all together and ready to take to the humanitarian center. my heart is happy.

and i think i'm done cutting kits for a while.

i'm loving babies & mamas, sunshine, happy rooms, and cool colors

but i couldn't stop looking at the picture because it shows the place where i played for the first 12 years of my life.

(but honestly, i don't snack alot. when you eat so much protein you don't get hungry as often through the day)

cate: (incredulously) what? were you a child of adam and eve?

and i cheat, like, alot. well, usually i ease up on weekends. but i feel so crappy and bloated again that i can't wait to start eating right on monday. but i have kind of had to tell myself, this is just the new lifestyle. and if i want to indulge every now and again i'm going to. cause i'd rather die than not be able to have some chips and guac or a slice of cake every now and again. so if i eat like this 90% of the time then i've noticed that my body or the scale doesn't mind if i wander in my choices a bit the other 10%. exercising everyday helps with this, too. i feel like it's a great trade off- feeling great and a regular period for a little self control.