and then suddenly and to my surprise i met and married the man i had no idea i was dreaming of but he was perfect for me and better than anything i had imagined or sought after before
and i cheat like alot well usually i ease up on weekends but i feel so crappy and bloated again that i cant wait to start eating right on monday but i have kind of had to tell myself this is just the new lifestyle and if i want to indulge every now and again im going to cause id rather die than not be able to have some chips and guac or a slice of cake every now and again so if i eat like this 90% of the time then ive noticed that my body or the scale doesnt mind if i wander in my choices a bit the other 10% exercising everyday helps with this too i feel like its a great trade off- feeling great and a regular period for a little self control
Ill show you what ive been working on soon- theyre presents and i have to give them away first have a nice monday
i know some people dont love the whole valentines thing but it is so fun to me i dont care if the greeting card company made it up- any day where i get to be pretty treated with sweetness have a declicious dinner and some romance is right on in my book
and then that got me thinking that really its not just while laying in bed that she is watching out for me
off to the kindergarten valentines day party
1 luce 2 Untitled 3 Working 4 Stove Top
the girl loves chocolate milk
she follows me around all day just in case she might be needed for something anything cute little penny is just a wee dog but she feels strongly that part of her duty is to scare the crap out of anyone who gets near our house just so they know no one is going to mess with her family not on her watch she is undeterred by bigger animals and scary men- they all get yelled at to stay away
let me explain Buoy
i had a really tumultuous teenager-hood i was a happy and smart little kid it was surprising when so much angst welled up inside me
remember how i was so proud that my room was clean and i was knitting well i still am
i have never been an animal person i swore id never have a dog who wants to pick up poop not me but somehow in my baby hungry weakness i was convinced to relent by the other two mccalebs who said they desperately needed a puppy fine whatever just take care of her and pick up the poop
remember when the weather was warm and we would go to the park when daddy got home from work and we would bring homemade bread and fruit to eat for dinner and we would be drenched in golden light and the cousins would come meet us for some wild rides down the slide
and as ive been laying in my misery ive been thinking a lot about that penny and just how lonely id be if she wasnt there with me
it transported me back in time to simpler sunnier days and its been making really happy to stare at today
a few months in the life of this infertile girl
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